I HATE THIS I WANT TO STOP THINKING AND I NEVER WANT TO TYPE ANOTHER WORD IN MY LIFE I WISH I COULD JUST POOF AWAY INTO NOTHING, DRIFTING AWAY IN A wisp OF SMOKE LIKE I LEAPT AND PLUNGED INTO AN OCEAN OF LIQUID NITROGEN.
THIS SHIT HAS MADE ME AN ANIMAL, I PUSH AND PUSH AND NOTHING COMES BACK TO ME NO WONDER I CONTINUALLY FLUCTUATE BETWEEN RAGE AND TRAGEDY.
IF THERE IS ANYTHING ELSE I COULD DO I WOULD DO IT. WHY MUST I DEVOTE SO MUCH TIME TO SOMETHING THAT FEELS SO EMPTY AND WRONG? I AM NOT INCLINED IN THE SLIGHTEST TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THIS. I DON’T WANT AN ‘A’ ANYMORE; I ONLY WANT TO DRINK IN THE SUN. IS THAT SUCH A HEDONISTIC AND BASE DESIRE? DOES IT MAKE ME BADMAN?
I SWEAR TO GOD THE STUDENT LIFE IS GOING TO KILL ME.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
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